December!

December! Yay! Finally! Ohh my goodness! This wait has felt like forever! It still feels like it will be ages from now, but we are getting married! :)
I just want to let you all know... I don't enjoy posting without Bryan... Although my posts are never known to him at first, but I mean to say that I don't enjoy posting about my "doings" if my "doings" don't include him...
But perhaps I should update about my birthday...
Bryan came to visit! I didn't take any photos, I just curled up in his arms for the weekend. But back to the beginning! The day started out normal enough. Bryan and I texted a little as usual, and I usually go to work on Thursdays to hang the clothes that come on our truck shipments each week, though I noticed that my shift was only 4 hours instead of 8... but I assumed that my managers knew it was my birthday and that it could be better spent away from work, how nice of my managers! So before work, I am getting ready, I shower, do my hair and makeup and get my work clothes ready... Of course I usually pull my hair back for our truck days because I am moving a lot and it just gets in the way... but since it was my birthday I thought I should do my hair nice, but the clothes needed to stay boring, truck day, gets sweaty and dusty/dirty, yeah yeah, not so fun to get pretty clothes messed up.. Dad said he wanted to work on my car... that was suspicious... I figured he might want to decorate it...? But then I figured that he just wanted an excuse to spend some time together, even if it would be the 5-10 minute drive to and from my workplace... hmm...
So I am hanging clothes, putting size beads on the hangers, putting the clothes in their respective places, and the end of my shift comes, super excited, planned to take a nap, maybe read a little, but just plain relax before the birthday plans with the parents, which I decided would be Thai food and frozen yogurt...
Well, dad came into the store, I had given him an excuse to come in earlier... something about my store having military ball caps, thought he might like one since my brother Dennis is in the Army.
I went to get my things to get going home. I answered a few text messages from my sister Melissa and Thuy, who likely new the secret... They were probably giggling that I didn't yet know! Crazy girls... keeping secrets! I am glad though.. But as I was walking out of the break room I saw a guy. Handsome of course, and yet very recognizable... my thoughts were this... "wow, that guy looks so familiar, and good looking, and there is dad, and my manager... and wait! BRYAN??? He is supposed to be in a class right now! WHA??"
Yeah, silly me, didn't think that my Bryan was so wonderful that he would plan to visit me for my birthday, how crazy!
Yeah, so we pretty much just sat in each others arms all weekend, just enjoying the fact that we didn't have to text! Until it was bedtime and we were on completely opposite sides of the house!
This post is likely all mixed up, haha... I am scatter brained! I can't wait until the big day! ;p
I love you Bryan!

November

November has finally arrived. I am super excited, though I may not look it or act it, I am very excited. It is a little hard to be excited for something when the person you want to share this excitement with is miles away. But I am proud of my Bryan. He is working hard, with both school and work. I sure don't like how busy it has made him, but I am sure glad that he is pulling through.
I have not posted about the wedding much, and for good reason! It is a surprise! And just like the invitations, there are a few changes from my first thoughts to the final results. And knowing me, I am likely OCD about perfection, at least I know I am when I am at work, but I would like to post the final happenings after the fact than to post what I had initially thought I wanted and then realize that what I had envisioned was not quite what I wanted.
But do know, that Bryan is everything that I want, and most certainly everything that I need. He came into my life in a time that I was most prepared to take him in. And I am sure there was a time we ran into each other in the Spori Building in the two years previous, but the Lord didn't quite think we were ready for each other until most recently. I am just so happy that I have him now, though I wish I had him sooner, I know that the Lord prepares us for every person we come into contact with.
I love my Heavenly Father, He has a plan for me, He has given me Bryan, my love, to be with me for the next part of our lives.
I love you Bryan. Kisses. Muah! ;p

:) Here is a picture of the Seattle Temple.

I took this picture in November of 2009.

Hopefully our big day will be beautiful, 

but likely we will have some rain. Ohh well.

my birthday...?

ALL I WANT IS THIS GUY! 

Yeah, this is true. It feels as though I have been waiting for ages... But I am surviving... But I want to survive WITH him! 

I cannot wait to start doing everything TOGETHER! Well, sort of.. Haha. Of course he heads to work when I would be going to sleep... But that is not every night! And at least he will come home to ME! :)

Ohh the dreams I dream! They don't help me want to wake up, because if I wake up, then I need to face reality, and the reality is... Bryan is not here to wake up to!

The week he came to visit, ohh boy, as soon as I woke up, I had gone to the bathroom to freshen up, you know the drill ladies... made sure my teeth were sparkling white, breath was minty, etc. etc... and jumped on his bed in my brother's room! 

I miss him! But I will soon have him. :)

I love you Bryan! Kisses! Muah! ;p

Writer's Block? I Think Not!

Hello, so lately I have just been plain busy, and a bit lazy mixed in all together! But I am hoping it changes, not drastically, cus we all know we like to get lazy from time to time, I think it is very healthy. But here are the desired changes, and hopefully they happen. ;p

     1) Wake up and go exercise!

My excuses are simply this...

     a) "Zumba" here is just too expensive... 

     b) "Just Dance" alone is not fun...

     c) Although my free gym is just down the hall, it is slightly limited compared to BYUI...

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     d) I just wanna sleep and dream of Bryan!!!

How I fixed this...

     i) I asked my parents to "wake the bride!" ;p

     ii) I now have yoga pants, and I gotta say, I look GOOD!
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     iii) I still have time to dream of Bryan... But I am stubborn and I want more dreaming time!

Is there anything more I can do??? Do share!

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     2) As long as I exercise, I am not as lazy in the day!

Which means...

     a) Besides working, I can get some things done, or started, or do something... 

Such as...

     i) Work on needed wedding plans & details!

     ii) Finish quilts that I started earlier!

     iii) Read instead of snacking all day!

     iv) BLOG!!!

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     v) Possibly take some pictures...

What else could I do...? Do share!

Did I Not Tell You?!

 Guess what! We went to Point Defiance Zoo & Aquarium when Bryan came to visit! ;p

We thought we had seen all that we could when mom and dad decided to see if the tiger was up and about, so we split up. Then we saw the "Budgie Buddies." Sounded interesting and we hadn't noticed it before, so we decided to go in. 

There were two sets of doors, I suppose to keep the birds inside, then there was another door to the bird enclosure. 

At first we just looked at the birds. Bryan tried taking some pictures, but the birds stayed where they were from a distance. Then I saw a little girl with a stick that had bird food glued to one end, and the birds came and landed on the stick and was eating! 

I was jealous... So I went and bought my own stick, and Bryan took pictures, it is a good thing I did my hair and wore a cute shirt! You never know when Bryan will take his iPhone out and start snapping pictures of you... 

That silly man that I love so much! ;p

11 Years Ago Today

From what I can remember about 9/11 is minimal, one because I was a young girl, and two because I was mostly consumed with the loss of my Grandmother. 

I don't recall when she passed, maybe the week earlier, I had come home from school, my parents had me and my twin brother in their room and they explained that she had died in her sleep. I was very confused because I had made a card for her. I didn't realize that the people in my life that I love will not always physically be here with me.

The funeral was the day that the towers fell. I remember it being a rainy day in Chico, CA. The drive felt long, I just sat in the back staring out the window. I don't remember many of my extended family members crying much at the funeral. I suppose they understood better about life and death than I did. 

I understood that I would see her again, but I wanted to keep seeing her then, I wanted to be able to keep visiting, and sleeping in her bed, and having Flap-Jack at the foot of the bed purring. I guess you could say that I was simply not ready to lose anyone.

In the picture is a box that my parents gave me with a photo of my grandmother, her dog Clemie, and her cat Flap-Jack. I don't recall if I had box before she died, or if it was after that it was given to me, but I have it. There is not much in it. I have some things that remind me of her, but there is not much. 

The number one thing that reminds me of her are quilts. I suppose that is my number one reason for trying to make so many. Antiques and other old unique things, like trinkets and furniture remind me of her. I find that I am the type of person who does not tend to speak of certain things out loud, usually because I tend to cry, but crying can be a good thing to do, maybe not as much as smiling. 

I am sorry for the lives lost that day, but let us keep smiling. :)

Big Smiles

I made some changes, pretty neat! Can you name a few?

I know... I'm going a little crazy, missing my Bryan... I love you!

Three months, one week... give or take a few hours, minutes, and seconds...

;p Kisses! ♥